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Friday, June 22, 2007

Tis day i had given birth to ryan on e 2th feb 07 at 11.47am.I was in e labour ward for nearly 12 hrs,at 12.00am sharp on e 1st of feb i was push to e labour ward.Had to change to an ugly clothes!!haha...I begin to feel vry scared n i nv felt tis kind of feelin b4 in my life.E nurses starts to take my preasure n my baby hart beat.My face was pale lyk an paper white sheet!gOOdness..I was left alone in e labour ward for awhile coz i nid to wait for my doc to come to attend to me.I felt so quiet in e room how i wish i could run away frm it.

Out of sudden i felt so lonely,n i cried,i rub my tummy n had a small talk wit my little prince.

I told him tat im afraid bt at e same time im happy coz we both get to see each other soon..Honey we have to be strong as we r e only ones now fighting for our life.Im sure u cant wait to come to tis world n open ur eyes to see me honey.It was amazing he moved n push me

in my tummy!he response me.I knew my son is a good boy.

At around 1.00am e contraction becomin nearer n nearer it only one side part of my body.I keep holding my tummy tite,doc keep asking me am i okey?if im nt i could take e oxygen to reduce my pain.n i do it wat e doc instruct me bt e pain din go so i juz put away tat oxygen ting its useless!I keep praying on my lips without stopping i even ask for my father to come in bt e doc says r nt allowed only mum or my husband,e father of e baby.I call my mum n beg her to come i told her its so painful n im scared mum..I nid someone in e room to support me.Then my mum rush to hospital,in my whole life i nv ask for my mum anytin n tat was e first time i beg my mum to be rite beside me.While waiting for my mum,there is a nurse came in to e room she is so soft spoken n u noe wat she did she sat beside me n pray for me for nearly half an hr,i felt so peaceful then b4 she go she kiss on my forehead n says to me it gona be arite ok??It soothe me alot.

Deep in my hart actually i was waiting for him to be here,bt i noe its juz wishful part of my tinkin n im aware he wont be here rushing for me.Coz tat moment i nid him e most,n im sure my baby too wants to c him too....[tears]...........................................................................................................

My mum came she hug me vry tite n ask me y am i crying??Is it vry painful?I juz kept cryin..I told my mum if anytin happens to me save my baby coz he is evryting to me,i love tis baby alot.im sorry mum i let u down...i let u down............my mum get out out frm e room n i noe she cried.Around 3am i felt vry weak my baby hart beat out of sudden drop..all e doc rush to me ask me to lie down on e rite side.n i started feverish... doc talk to my parents suggst for me to take epidural as he is afraid tat i may nt able strong enuf to push e baby.Bt thre is gona be side affects.Witout any tinkin i told them we juz sign.

I was ask to sit down wit my heavy tummy n bend down as they nid to inject 3 times into my backspine.She told me it gona be vry painful n i cant move bcoz it could danger my life.IT gona took around 15 mins to finish all tis.My god so long!!Indeed it is vry painful.Around 10 mins i startted shiverin my body was so cold covered myself wit 2 blankets n it was still so cold,they check my temperature i had a high fever quikly n inject me to ctrl my temperature.After tat ask me to sleep coz im only 4cm,i nid to wait until it is 9 cm then i could start to push e baby.My mum slept beside me till 5 plus,she even din open her stall today bcoz she is worried abt me.U noe wat when i open my eyes n sees my mum face i felt so hartbroken as i given her alot of probs,i told myself in my hart mum i do really love u,thanx alot..
I kept tossing around i cant even had a nap peacefully mayb im scared,my hartbeat keep on beating vry fast,cant even go to e toilet as all e tube was in my areas it was uncomfortable.8aM mY mum wakes n told me she go home for awhile coz she nids to take someting urgently.N i told her go bt pls rush here as soon as possible.
9.30Am e doc check on me n she say my baby progress vry slow,i have to immeadiately go for an operation,at tat time i was vry confused as it was so choatic at tat moment.I raised my voice at them i told them should i go for operate or normal birth?!!coz each time say different ting then after awhile say different ting get mad rite??nearly 10 am doc check me again n told tat i be able to push now,e baby head is aready down.All e staff there give me support to push e baby out.I start pushin 10 pus till 11.47!!Could u imagine how long is tat?I kept pushing wit all my strength n all my energy!it was so tiring.till tat half way i nearly wanted to give up.e doc says im sure u wants to c ur baby so i wants u to concentrate n push wit all ur strength so don give up!i tink its countless i don noe how alt of times i had to push ryan out in my tummy.At 11.47 am he was born,i felt relieve when his head is out e rest doc will pull it,e main important is e head as he nids to breath.All of them in e room was all in smile :]they says well done!!ya..ya..

Friday, June 15, 2007

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Halo!let me introduce myself my name is liya hmm.. i used e name as liya-cinderella bcoz it was name by someone vry special fr my past. Currently im workin as a sales executive in shoes industry coz i love shoes n fashion as well!!I will go further to ugrade n noe more abt fashion stuff.Tis year im gona turn 21!in few mths time.My goal in my life i gona be e best!!

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